Loads of thoughts running through my mind. Maybe cause I'm nearing my due date.

I'm just extremely sick and tired of people getting to me, telling me how dumb I am to land myself in this mess. What mess are they talking about? A baby of course. How they're telling me that it's not easy to raise a child and don't forget, you got to raise her for at least 20years.

I know what I signed up for when Cw and I decided to have the child. I've left the company to raise this child on my own. Both my mum and Mil are working so there's no-one to help and I just can't dump Leia onto my grandma when she have the whole household to look after. SO YES, I AM QUITE ALONE IN THE TAKING CARE PART! The only time when I have help, would be when hus gets back from work. So yes, for the final time, I really really know what I'm in for.

I'm going to be puked on, pee-ed on, salivated at and baby girl might be crying a whole lot. I'll go through sleepless nights, (Tip: I'll sleep when baby girl is sleeping, so that I'm in sync with her. And I know that if I don't sleep when she's asleep, I would definitely feel tired when I feel like sleeping, but she's awake), changing of diapers and so on and so forth. I know typing these out are easy, when it comes to hands-on, its tiring. But at least I know how to keep myself mentally prepared.

Stages of life I've gone through when I found out I was pregnant:

1) Thinking of aborting. Read it here
2) Threw my proposal ring back to cw once
3) Had to deal with the most hurting comments ever (I had to hide my tears from Cw as it might upset him and stuff)

And now, I've told myself this:

So go ahead and slap me in the face. Don't worry, I won't do anything to you, I mean it. I'm just walking away from negative people that's all. Cause I know that these people don't mean anything to me. If that's the case, I don't see why I should live my life for you.