So, my family have been "screaming" at me for the baby's health actually, that I really force myself to wake up every morning ard 8-830 (If I can lay in longer, I definitely would) to have breakfast! @_@!!

And its always the usual - Koko Krunch! *Slurps* Why am I forcing myself to have breakfast? My stomach is so freaking small, everyone's like "Are you sure you're pregnant?" or "I swear, you don't look like 6mths pregnant".

Let me show you guys my figure now (Btw, its a very unglam shot, cause I was trying out one of my dresses from collection 2, just you know, to see if it fits):

Very unclear shot as well, but I was not wearing any concealer and in my specs, so no way are you guys seeing that. HAHAHA!!! And yes, despite being 6mths pregnant, that dress looks a little big on me. Another maxi dress that I'm trying on also from collection 2 (I'm just waiting for pictures from my photographer, but in the meantime, I'm fine tuning stuff like mailing policy etc so I'll blog about my shop soon!) that shows my baby bump:

And because of this pic (no photoshop involved), I have friends telling me that the bump I have looks like a 4mth preggy bump. ~_~!! So yes, I'm worried. I want my belly to be HUGE. Maybe it would give me the assurance that the baby in my belly is fine.

Side tracking a little, I got a cute message from one of my bestest friends yesterday! That's from Shuyu! Made me smile, I tell you:

Cuteness isn't it?? <3

To aid my post on depression and what I learnt from my own experience is to open up, I'm showing you guys what I texted one of my good friend. Pregnancy tends to lead to loads of hormonal changes and because I'm facing what you call pre-natal anxiety, I texted Karin as she had a sister who just gave birth and so as a family member to the new-born child, she could understand from a FAMILY point of view. But yes, I'll blog more about what I'm going through in later posts. Pregnant women who are going through what I'm going, can relate and hope it helps too! I heard my suicidal posts encouraged some girls out there, and I'm glad to be of help! :)

I'm not here to show-off that post, but I have this friend sharing my post and tagging me on facebook and stuff, so I know that somehow, it would have helped people out there. I don't get anything from sharing (Just FYI to some readers). In fact, I was having a convo with Cw just the other day on divorce and I said "If that happens, I want Leia to stay with me". But he went "Erm... No? I won't divorce you, cause I want to be with you, but if the divorce happens, means its from your end and I'll surely ask my lawyers to get your medical history (aka my depression records) and show it to the judge." So please, before you guys think I'm hankering for fame, its not! In fact, do think twice for your future in case a kid arises. Now, I'm in a very bad position as he does have a point.

A preview of what I texted Karin and I'm glad I've opened up to her. Getting someone to help is a stepping stone:

So once again, if anyone feels like dying, TEXT SOMEONE first!! I've learnt this and I've told myself at least I'm not stubborn anymore to open up. :)