Was feeling quite lost prior to leaving for Japan. It's been awhile since I last drank. Think the last time was with G and gang and always at Shanghai dolly or crew room. Really missed those days!

Eating alone isn't boring actually. In fact, I'm starting to get use to it. Had Parker's the other day. It is the only Korean restaurant that I frequent when I'm in the Thomson area, or maybe the only one that I frequent as it is nearer to head there than the Ang Mo Kio area.

Korean kimchi noodles with sausages. I opted out for luncheon meat as I don't like the sogginess it appears in the soup and Cw wasn't with me at that time else, I'll just pass it to him. They usually give 6 side dishes when we go there as a couple, and since this is my first time dining alone, I was quite surprise that I only had 3 side dishes. But no biggie, I can't eat all 6 alone anyway.

Drinks after that. It's so good to consume ice cold beer after dinner. I actually wanted soju to go with my food, but I was afraid that the alcohol content would be high (I never had soju before) as I am driving, so I opted for beer at Ming's Pub instead. Beer can never go wrong - two cups will not make you tipsy.

Shall not say what's going on, rather keep things to myself. I'm not sure who reads this platform, but you can never be too sure. Maybe when the time is ripe, I'll go full blast. We'll see.

I'm now googling on kids friendly staycations in and out of Singapore. If Singapore has nice stuff, I'll go to wherever it is. Else, I think its my first time bringing Leia overseas alone. Think that's one thing on my mind - I'm so used to doing things with Leia and always alone with her that I don't feel Cw and I are a couple anymore. He hates to bring her out. Then what do you want me to do? Stay at home 365 days with my daughter? That's bull! So having no choice, I'll just assign vacations with her and me alone. On Saturday's, it's either to the magic card shop or Mj with his friends and that just leaves us 1 day to ourselves on Sunday's. But if he doesn't even want to hand out with Leia and I on Sunday's, then that leaves nothing.

Don't get me wrong, he wants to hang out with me. I am all for my parents to look after Leia, but my dad has been doing that since day 1 when she was born. It is too strenuous for him as he is getting exhausted. I've suggested before to put her at my mil's house but he is so adamant, like he STRONGLY refuses because he thinks my mil can't handle her. It all happened when Leia was around 4 months old and we asked her to look after Leia for a couple of hours while we went for a swim, my mil couldn't handle Leia and called us back, thus in a way "ruining" our date and from then on, Cw refuses to seek his mum's help.

But by doing so, I feel that he isn't giving his mum a chance now that Leia is older and also, indirectly pushing things to my dad which as his daughter, I feel the unfairness. I might be so called "washing dirty laundry in public" but having typed this far, I won't press backspace and delete these thoughts. Maybe someone - a reader, a mummy, his friend - can help me.

Anywho, I'm still googling places to go during the August long public holidays. I can be with Leia and also able to get my mind on things while I'm away. Suggestions anyone? Be it places to go or advice on my issues,