Maybe I should start of with why I chose to put her in school. Cw wanted her to be in school when she is 2 yrs old, meaning this September. I negotiated with him as my dad was starting to get tired from his granddaughter. Don't be mistaken by that sentence, it just simply means that he is tired from the running after her and what nots. He still loves her like crazy. So Cw said in June when we are back from our Japan trip.
So I enrolled her in the June intake, but since I'm still looking for a job, and thus been bumming around at home (No, I'm not going to be a SAHM), I've seen how happy my dad is when I'm here. Simply cause responsibilities are going to be with me and he can finally relax. That's when I realised once I'm out in the working force, this child sitting thing would start its toil on him. For crying out loud, he is 65yrs old running after a baby. I can't let that happen anymore and thus, I rang the school up and asked if there is any intake for March and they told me yes.
I know some kids start PG at 22 months or mothers would skip the whole PG stage and just go pre-N when their kids turns 3 (Honestly, with the curriculum like this, how can students not be stressed in Singapore?). My reason for putting Leia in school is because of my dad. But is this too "kiasu"? I guess I'm just being paranoid or something. But my dad has heart problems too and gout (which is caused by his stubbornness for not changing his diet of red meat) hence this decision.
But of course there are other alternatives - Just be a SAHM, which means Leia start school next year. I dunno if that's a solution. Or something I thought about is - Get a baby sitter. But once I start this topic, friends of mine will go "Just put her in school. She can socialise and make friends. No use for a sitter, if you need to pay money, I'll rather Leia goes to school"
Call me a bimbo, but I'm googling stuff like "Besides school and home care, where can my baby go?" Ressults?
I even tried typing Singapore behind:
Which is just telling me whats the education structure like. I know, Leia's mum is like crazy. But hey, lets face it - when we are stuck, even if its a nonsensical situation, we google. I bet most girls even google "Should I marry my boyfriend?" or "Should I accept this guy" and so on and so forth.
Anywho, I don't know if I'm being kiasu here, I'm just here to seek out opinions. Different mothers have different parenting methods. It doesn't mean her method is wrong as well. I just keep thinking how tiring my dad is and when I go back to work, and the toil is taking on him, I just find myself selfish. At the end of the day, Leia's my responsibility not his.
He is helping me which I'm totally thankful for. But if he is starting to get too tired then as his daughter, I have to help him right? I know some might even go, its a dad's responsibility to help his daughter, then let me correct you - Leia's his granddaughter, not daughter. I'm not sure if you guys know, when I'm back from work, I tell my dad to rest, cause he is tired from looking after her full day. I don't claim myself to be a good mum, sometimes I find Cw doing a better job than me.Give him the credit, I know Cw is a good dad. But the point is, I can't be selfish to just dump my responsibility on my dad. Its being selfish and irresponsible. I just hope Leia can cope well with making friends.
However, if there are other alternatives that allows my dad to rest and I can go to work knowing that everything is ok, just tell me. I'm open to opinions. It might really help me alot. :)
A picture of us together at the TCS photo shoot:
And what else am I doing now besides typing this blog? Watching an old school chick flick, don't judge me okay? I miss movies like these. HA! =X
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