I'm sure EVERYONE'S still harping about the GC Vs NN war. Its ok, I can't stop the trend, I'm just one mere soul, not even an influencer, not even an "anything". Then, you might ask "Why am I writing then?" I've started blogging since so long - The days I was with M for 3.5 yrs, to the days I lost a best friend, to the days I moved onto wordpress and then back to blogspot. My old blog (www.bubble-thoughts.blogspot.com) which held 4yrs of memories should still be there, just vacant. So yes, I'm NOT blogging because its a trend, bubble-thoughts have been with me since I was a wee teen.

Anywho, I have a friend who is a GC influencer, and because of the whole saga, she removed her instagram and her facebook. Its ok, I respect that, it doesn't show that she has done anything wrong, because I have a feeling why she removed it was because you guys are targeting her kids.

I've seen someone cropping her kids and putting ugly faces on them. Look here guys - If you guys want a war, find her and not her kids. I'm sure she got all upset because they are her everything. Can you imagine if for example, someone calls me a slut and Leia a bitch (because she is a slut's daughter), how will I take this lying down? I can't. Bully me yes, but not my daughter.

In fact, when she got bullied because someone called her slow, I retaliated back so fiercely that the person apologised, which I duly accepted, but not talking to her anymore. So as a mother, for god's sake, please leave her children alone, all 3 of them in fact.

I wouldn't be writing this if I didn't see those pictures. Enough is enough, I have no idea who's fault is it is - and seriously, I couldn't care less - but seriously, if you guys are mature enough, let the big man fight this war. Targeting kids are seriously low. So now I'm wondering how low can these people get?

Mind you, if I were to see anyone disfiguring Leia's pictures, you sure know I'll go all out to make sure I get that shit removed. So please, its going to be 2015 soon. Don't stoop so low.

Not making any resolutions, don't think I will fulfill any of them. But if there's one thing I can wish - LEIA TO BE A HEALTHY KID.

Seriously, ever since I'm a mom, EVERYTHING CHANGES. A picture of her smiling. Love her crinkly eyes. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY DARLING. May you be blessed with good health and full of happiness. Smile like you were smiling in the picture above, my baby girl. :)

To you readers out there - HAVE A FANTASTIC COUNTDOWN! :)

Gushcloud Vs Nuffnang

So that's the hottest topic in town. I've read Xiaxue's blog on her allegations towards GC.

I'm wondering if what she said was true, that's' all. A day after her post was published, GC just said that her accusations are not true and that they are going to sue her. I dunno about them, but I was wondering when I got accused my Cw.

What did I do? I retaliated with evidence to prove my case. I'll say things like "Remember I told you blah blah..... and when you said you can't... blah blah..." I didn't just keep quiet and of course no, I'm not going to sue him, but I'll be all defensive on my side.

So if a mere human being I am, why didn't the company do this? I mean, your reputation is at stake here!

Anywho, it's Christmas Eve and I can't wait to get back to Leia (pronounced Lay-er) to count down with her. It's her second Christmas and last yr I wasn't with her as I was out counting down in a pub with Cw and friends. But now that she's older, I want her to participate with our Christmas "party". So yes, she's allowed to stay awake, of course, if she's like damn sleepy, she will sleep. But definitely counting down with my darling daughter.

A picture of us at Church of St. Theresa:

She's growing up so fast! I can't believe it as well. This was taken after the choir session after church. I know EVERY mummy would coo over their baby, so much less myself - BUT MY BABY LOOKS SO DEMURE WITH THAT DRESS AND BLACK SHOE. Throw her a bridal baby dress, and she makes a good flower girl. :)

My grandparents were buried beside the church, so we brought her to see them and I really hope that ma-ma and gong gong will look after her. I'm from a peranakan family, so Leia would be calling them ma-chor and gong-chor.

God Bless them!

Mummy's Woes

Confession: I'm losing patience with my daughter.

Yes, she is still my love, but she doesn't seem to listen to whatever I say. The bomb dropped when I was lying with her side by side, with the duvet drawn over us. A cozy sight for half an hour and things got nasty when she started pulling my hair and taking off my glasses. I told her not to but her nails were so long that she was scratching away at my face and hence, I shouted at her to stop.

Cw came in after that terrible fiasco and he in turn shouted at Leia which made my mum and my sister barging into the room finding out what went wrong. Lesighs! What with work and what nots, I think I need sleep badly (but then again, who doesn't?) so yes, I really think I'm losing my patience with my darling daughter.

I know this is wrong, as she doesn't know anything yet, like why mummy is reprimanding her etc, but surely there is a way to settle this nonsense? I mean, how do you mummies do it? I've tried the CIO (cry it out) method, but it pains me to do so, and I carried her halfway because it's not that nice to be reading a book, and acting nonchalant when your baby's wailing.

How do you mummies do it?

Anywho, it was Leia's first Christmas party with my friends from mfss, and sneak previews first (I'm running late here):

That's Chloe with Leia from the first picture! :)

So, Marvyn's gone. As in, he departed for Denmark, leaving me with Snowie (self-christened car). He wasn't a close cousin of mine, in fact, I'm closer to his sister. But his demise, made me think loads.

For starters, when you're met with THE ONE, you'll do anything for her. Eben is his wife from Denmark. They met in Shanghai. Knowing M, and the player he is, we didn't expect the relationship to last. The Goh family have an annual Christmas tradition, where we'll gather at my uncle's house and swap presents with the kids. Every year, M will bring a different girl each time. So when he told his mother (my aunt) that he wants to marry Eben, it is a jaw breaking experience.

Two adorable kids was born a decade ago and now they are all in Danish land. To uproot a family is difficult, learning different lifestyles and cultures ain't easy. But for M to be doing this it means he really loves his family. I wonder if down the road, when I decided to move, will Cw ever say yes to me.

Now that I have Snowie, things are more convenient. It takes a half hour drive to the office and back, reaching home in time to put Leia to bed. Petrol is quite cheap for a 1.5L, a full tank cost me $61. Of course, I have the SPC card, so maybe there's a further discount.

Anywho, I can't wait for the Christmas season to be here. Cw promised me a Japan trip (half business, half leisure), Leia will be heading out to 2 Christmas parties, her first being on the 14th!

On a sidenote, this is one hell of Christmas tree that Leia should have. Courtesy of 9gag:

HAHAHA!! I laughed out loud at this. Oh man, if only there is a Star Wars tree featured in Singapore.

Will blog about this Japanese restaurant in Club Street that I went with Sam in awhile. :)

Adios!

P.S. I can't wait to bring Leia to a water park too. But until next year, since the weather is so darn cold seeing that its "winter"

1st death anniversary

Bleak title, dreary post, black Wednesday. 

My little brother died yesterday, last year. I remember I was in my room and Leia was asleep downstairs when Cw came rushing into my room asking "did cy contacted you?" I said no and brushed off the qn when he startled me by saying "army wanna charge him for AWOL" that's when I went like "wth!!" and demanded answers, being the kan chiong me. 

It was when I told Cw to call my mil and ask what really happened when she was crying over the phone and saying that she's in the cab home because army called her and said that someone was found dead at her void deck, they think he/she might be her son, can she go and check (LIKE SERIOUSLY?! Check? Army should mind how they phrase their sentence).

I didn't even have time to put a proper bra on, I told my dad that I needed to borrow his car (as I didn't have one back then), because cy committed suicide. Of course, I shouldn't have used that word because we didn't know, we gotta "check" remember? But being the anxious me, I just blurted that word out and everybody went like "HUH?" 

Fast forward to when we reached my mil's house, we saw a death tent. I told Cw to quickly get out and verify who is that, praying that is wasn't cy! I couldn't park on that day. I did like 10 tries of vertical parking, sweating like crazy in an aircon car. I know all those male readers out there might scorn at how a female park. You let me know how you parked when your brother dies. 

So anyway, it was him alright. That's when I bawled like crazy. He was such a good boy! I was on better terms with him instead of Eugene. Not that I hated Eugene, but there were more things to talk about with Cy. I told the policewoman who took me aside that I dunno what went wrong. Cause, in all honesty, I really don't. 

When all of Cw's friends came, they also dunno how to react. I only remembered crying infront of Melissa and her bf when they told me that cy might have done some soccer betting, because to me, if money can solve problems, it isn't a problem at all. I'm not rich, but I'm pretty sure, almost all would agree. 

I'm not going into details as to what cause him to jump down. But I'm happy that he has nice friends. Like super duper nice friends. When we were tired from the "shou ye", their friends said they'll do it. All 5 of them got lots of red bull and just played poker. Where to get friends like that? Maybe my friends won't even shou ye for me. Hahahaha!!

But yes, little brother, I know you did a foolish thing, I bet you laughed at me for almost dying from attempting suicide. I'm not here to laugh at you, I'm here to thank you. The pain that I went through because you died, it reminded me of what my parents and sisters might go thru, and it sure hurts like hell! And because it hurts like hell, I don't want any relatives of mine to go thru that. So yes, I don't think I'll attempt that act anymore, but it means that I can only get to miss you. :)

I sometimes hated you for this. Like really hated you, because I have tonnes of qns for you! Till we meet again, when I'm gone, I guess I'll just continue missing you! Oh, did you know that my daughter is all grown up from the last you saw her?